March 20, 2009

Hope in the midst of loss

Well, God’s been working over here in the Stokes house! God has been putting His hand print all around our circumstances and this is what has kept us encouraged and hopeful in Him. On Tuesday we found out we’re in the middle of a miscarriage, I was 7 weeks along. It was a sad appointment and I’ve definitely had my moments of tears and heartache…but there’s more to our story. There’s hope. The day before this appointment, we got a call from our adoption attorney and a young Christian woman had chosen to pursue our family. Not knowing we were in the middle of a miscarriage when we got the call, we felt the Lord was leading us to pursue the adoption, even if it ment twins (the due dates of us both were very close). So yes, of course I was sad about the loss of our pregnancy and still have my moments, but at the same time, I have seen first hand the mighty and compassionate hand of the Lord…he gave us hope in the midst of pain.

“In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.”

He knew and still knows the final outcome of our season of life and we have peace because of that. We feel so humbled that the Lord would choose us at this time, after waiting two years on the adoption and really feeling called to take this route, that He would have it come at a time that could only be explained by Him and we give Him all the glory! So, thank you for your kind emails and for praying for our pregnancy. Once again we are reminded that this life is not about us and our plans but rather about Him, His will being done and we’re simply the vessels for Him to be glorified through.

So, on the adoption front, we had our first meeting with the birth mom on Tuesday evening and it went great! She is amazing! We will take the next step in the process which is to meet her in person and we’re so excited. We’re really looking forward to spending some time with her in a few weeks, getting to know her more and seeing what the Lord has in store. The baby is due Sept. 18th.

This is going to be a daily surrender to Him because adoption definitely has its risks but we want this little baby to be where God chooses, if with us we will feel blessed and honored that the Lord chose us, but if with someone else, God will take care of our hearts in the process.  Proverbs 16:9 says, “In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.” 

Noah has such a great attitude about it all…he encourages me everyday to see life from the Lords eyes and not from my own. He told me, “Honey, think of it as an adventure, we’re just watching to see where God takes us.” So that’s what we’re doing!

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